Since Ive been home Ive noticed a few things that have changed. One would be the green grass trying to come through as spring approaches, Two how much the town has changed and the roads seem to be worse, and Three how much people changed and don't change.
When i was in high school i was the first one to be ready to walk away from all of the people i graduated with and never look back. I was perfectly happy with the idea of never seeing them again. Most of my high school friends ventured off to Lincoln and i was happy with the go the opposite direction to Kearney. Then over spring break i agreed to see my friend Alaina for coffee and ran into another mutual friend from high school that i had known for a long time, Eryn. As i sat and talked to the girls i was amazed at how much life had changed them and molded them into the people they were. Eryn had become much more daring and courageous, while Alaina had put up the walls to the world that everything was fine. Knowing both of them as well as i do it wasn't hard to see the difference in either of them and all i could do was smile. They decided that we needed to hang out for St. Patricks day and I agreed. I spent that night with friends from school that i was very happy never looking back on and i was very surprised at how much i loved being around them again. To me it was like being in high school again, in a way it was fun to laugh and talk about the new stories we had to share with each other. So when I left are gathering i called my best friend/boy friend Zach.
I talked to him about my night and was sad that he hadn't been there. I talked to him about my feelings towards my friends and why i felt so utterly confused about life after seeing them. He laughed and reminded me that its natural to feel confused or afraid of life. We talked about were life was going for the two of us and how it was different from everyone else. I came to the conclusion that before I know it ill be 20, so will my friends. Before i know it one of them will be married, one of them will go to jail, and one of them might die. Before i know it, life will change and there is nothing any of us can do about it. Its part of there lives and part of there paths. I hope that each of the them stays out of trouble. The good old times will always be fun to look back and talk about but the process of moving on, growing up and living your life meeting new people is the real joy in life. I wish them all the best of luck in there New times.
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I am just like you when it came to getting away from old high school friends. Most of my friends stayed in Lincoln and I came to Kearney. It's always hard to see old friends because our lives are very different now. But like you over break I met up with an old friend and lets just say times have changed a lot.
ReplyDeleteBefore i know it one of them will be married, one of them will go to jail, and one of them might die.
ReplyDelete-You're very right Hope. I think it is funny how you lump marriage in with jail and death. Embrace tomorrow, and always keep your head held high. I forgot what it was like to be 19, scary.